Our Final Victory.

1 Corinthians 15:55-58

Where, O death, is your victory? Where, O death, is your sting?” The sting of death is sin, and the power of sin is the law. But thanks be to God! He gives us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ. Therefore, my dear brothers and sisters, stand firm. Let nothing move you. Always give yourselves fully to the work of the Lord, because you know that your labor in the Lord is not in vain.

We had our weekly prayer meeting yesterday and what was said in that meeting and the verse I have found above have stirred something in my heart that I intend to run with.

The love of God needs to be within all that we do. Without it, all our actions are worthless. We also need to spread this love to everyone, regardless of race, status or any of the other labels that we tend to attach to people. This was the message that I took away from that meeting (that I need to share the love of God with everyone). I found this verse this morning and it complemented what I had taken away from that meeting perfectly.

I need to give myself fully to the work of God, to spreading his love around and to do so without worrying about rebuke and rebuttal.

Romans 4: 9 – 16

Is this blessedness only for the circumcised, or also for the uncircumcised? We have been saying that Abraham’s faith was credited to him as righteousness. 10 Under what circumstances was it credited? Was it after he was circumcised, or before? It was not after, but before!11 And he received circumcision as a sign, a seal of the righteousness that he had by faith while he was still uncircumcised. So then, he is the father of all who believe but have not been circumcised, in order that righteousness might be credited to them. 12 And he is then also the father of the circumcised who not only are circumcised but who also follow in the footsteps of the faith that our father Abraham had before he was circumcised.

13 It was not through the law that Abraham and his offspring received the promise that he would be heir of the world, but through the righteousness that comes by faith. 14 For if those who depend on the law are heirs, faith means nothing and the promise is worthless, 15 because the law brings wrath. And where there is no law there is no transgression.

16 Therefore, the promise comes by faith, so that it may be by grace and may be guaranteed to all Abraham’s offspring—not only to those who are of the law but also to those who have the faith of Abraham. He is the father of us all.

In this verse, it is  asked whether those who were circumcised would receive the same blessedness as those who were uncircumcised. Abraham was accounted his faith for righteousness and it was unclear whether it was accounted before or after he was circumcised. The answer given was that it was accounted before, and that the circumcision was a sign of his righteousness by faith whilst he was uncircumcised.

Faith comes first and foremost (verse 13 states that he received the promise of the world through faith) and that the promise is given both to those of the law and those who have the faith of Abraham.

This links in with the prayer meeting. You need to have the love of God in all you dom or your actions are hollow and meaningless. At first I thought it seemed a little harsh, but when I thought about it, it made sense.

I hope you have a blessed day, and feel the same joy in God that I have found these past few days

Our Final Victory.

Creating Altars

It’s been a while since I have been moved to post anything here. I have a feeling that has been because God has wanted me to focus on my personal issues that were preventing me from opening my heart fully to Him.

I feel as though I have made a breakthrough today (although it is up to me to capitalise on it). The sermon at church this week was about building altars. One of the verses that were quoted was this:

Genesis 8: 20-22

Then Noah built an altar to the Lord, and took of every clean animal and of every clean bird, and offered burnt offerings on the altar. And the Lord smelled a soothing aroma. Then the Lord said in His heart, “I will never again curse the ground for man’s sake, although the imagination of man’s heart is evil from his youth; nor will I again destroy every living thing as I have done. “While the earth remains, Seedtime and harvest, Cold and heat, Winter and summer, And day and night Shall not cease.”

God took the offerings and they pleased him so much that he promised never to destroy life as he had done with the great flood. God also feels the same way when we praise him, whether at church or at home. Our bodies are the altar and our praise is the sacrifice that we offer up to God.

I got on my knees and I prayed and I felt uplifted. It felt wonderful. I felt reconnected to God again. It is now up to me to take that feeling out of Church and spread it throughout my daily routine.

Have a blessed day.

Creating Altars


I have made a fairly big decision today. I have decided to remove myself from the internet for an indeterminate amount of time. The reasons for doing so are varied, but the major reason is that is a distracts me from talking to God and from furthering my spiritual journey.

Don’t get me wrong. The internet has been a wonderful resource for me, and through it I have met many wonderful people on here (my future wife being one of those things), but there are also a lot of temptations on here too, and I fully admit to getting side tracked and deflected from what I should be doing (praising God and learning all He has to teach me).

This won’t be a permanent thing, and I fully intend to keep this blog going through my other halfs laptop, because I enjoy it. For anything else though, I will not be around. It will be good for me and for my spiritual growth. I know it.


Have a blessed day


The strength to ask for help.

This is probably the hardest thing I have done to date, especially since I have found my faith. I made allusions, in my last blog, to certain things that I was struggling with that I wanted to keep between me and God. However, events have transpired in such a way that I wanted to share it with you, as an example of how God sometimes needs to lower you down before He can help you.

The thing I was struggling with was self pleasuring. There we go. I said it. Self pleasuring. The time periods between occurrences would vary (sometimes hours, sometimes days, sometimes a week or two) but in the end I would always cave in. Afterwards I would always feel disgusting and unclean, but I told myself I would resist it next time (I never did).

I told my other half about it, how frequent it was and whether pornography was used or not, and after the air had cleared, she said she would help me as best as she could and that she would pray for me. She also gave me some pretty good advice on how to deal with these urges should they occur again (which I have a feeling they will).

I understand why she reacted so angrily to begin with. It’s not nice to hear these sorts of things, but I read somewhere that you must always repent your sins to God (first and foremost) and then to the person you have offended. If I hadn’t told her, then not only would I have been disrespecting both God and her, then it could have blown up into something a lot worse.

In closing, I have heard plenty of good things about this blog and it’s honesty (one commenter even called it “real”). I hope you realize why I am posting this. It’s not to receive a pat on the back for doing the “right thing”, nor am I doing it to show everyone what a good Christian I am. I am doing this so that, several years down the line, I can look back at this post and say “I was weak here, but God put me in this position so he could teach me the value of asking for help and how silly it is to try and go things alone when I don’t have the strength”.

I also hope that someone might stumble upon this who is in the same position as I am, and ask for help themselves. It is never too late to ask for His help.

1 John 4:10

In this is love, not that we loved God, but that He loved us and sent His Son to be the propitiation for our sins.

Have a blessed day.




The strength to ask for help.

Thoughts and stuff – 10/2/2016

So I’m sitting here, with the K-Love radio station in the background and thinking about how my spiritual journey is progressing. There are both good and bad things that I want to chat about.

The good stuff

I guess the first thing is the blog. I am surprised and happy that it seems to have taken off in the way it has done. I thank God that He has enabled me to express myself through this medium, and I thank God that people are reading it. I hope one day (whether I know or not doesn’t matter) that it will touch someone who really needs God with them, and it enables them to go and find God again.

I will also be getting married soon. The only regret I have about it, is that we booked the registry before we found our faith again, so it will be a non-religious ceremony. Offsetting that is the fact that we have a couple of good friends attending who will pray with us afterwards, and we will be getting a blessing from our church when we return from honeymoon, so that is good.

I am also hoping to get baptized before the marriage too. I’m not sure when it will be, but I feel as though it’s something I need. I still need to talk to the Pastor about it, so it’s not happening quite yet, but soon.

The bad stuff

My memory is concerning me. It concerns me because I am forgetting to pray, I am forgetting to read my devotional and I am forgetting to study my Bible and look for inspiration for my posts. I am sure that this is a test, and as with other problems my condition has thrown up, I will overcome it with Gods help, but it’s bringing me down a bit at the moment.

There is also the fact that there are certain parts of my old life that I am finding difficult to leave behind, and the temptation to do these things has been too much for me to overcome. At the moment, I would like to keep these things between me and God.


I am excited for the future, especially now that I have found God again, but I know that I still have things I need to overcome and temptations I still need to fight. I know that God will be with me when these things occur (that is one thing I know I will never forget again).

I thank everyone who has followed me, commented or liked my posts. It is much appreciated.

God bless.



Thoughts and stuff – 10/2/2016


Alexander Pope:

To err is human; to forgive, divine.

This is something that has been difficult for me to do in the past. I have always operated under a “one chance and you’re out” policy with people, and once that chance had been used up, that was it.

However, the rediscovery of my faith has made me come to terms with what these people have done to me, and make a decision on whether I was going to keep nursing a grudge against them or to let it go.

Mark 11:25

And whenever you stand praying, if you have anything against anyone, forgive him, that your Father in heaven may also forgive you your trespasses.

It is obvious that, in order for our own sins to be forgiven, we must first forgive those who have sinned against us. How can we open up our own hearts to God if they are still full of distrust and negativity. How can God pour His love into us when we are filled to the brim with hate. To forgive is to empty ones self of the negative feelings that Satan likes to prey upon and to instead be filled with Gods love and grace, that we might lead better lives and be admitted into heaven at the end of it.

I still find it hard to forgive at times, but I feel better when I do, and all the negativity flows away.

Have a blessed day.


If I am an “evil sheep”, because I choose God, then I am an “evil sheep” and will be one to the end of my days.

An odd choice of title, you might say, but as this post goes on, it might make a bit more sense.

As with anyone on this site, who chooses to follow me or to take the time to like or comment on one of my posts, I will take the time to have a look at your profile, just to see what sort of person has chosen to take an interest in my writings and what you are interested in talking about.

This person, who had decided to like one of my posts, clearly did not like Christianity or Christians, as was evident in a fair few of his own posts (some parts of which I will share with you below:)

But this seems to be a problem for many white nazi type christians who believe in lies all there lives and seem more comfortable with this than the truth! White so-called Christians, you are mostly just psychotics!


As has always been the case, sheep are trusting and accepting all the while being fleeced leading ultimately to their pre-planned slaughter. This is the core of the Christian Faith, sacrifice.


The bible was the product of marketing by the leaderships of the church to create not truth, but a product that they could use to exploit there political and economic objectives with! This is the unmarketable truth of the “Bible!”

At this point, I was ready to close the blog (and my laptop) and pray for him, but my head was turned by a post entitled “How evil is Christianity” and, after reading it, I decided that I could not remain silent and contacted him.

I thanked him for liking my post and asked him why he had such an apparent dislike for Christianity when not only were Christians being persecuted in Iraq and Syria, but that evil itself was a human trait.

This was the response I got:

I have a bugabear with being a stickler for truth and christians and jews do not! The facts are that the original texts for the new and old testaments still exist and when compared to the actual bible, the bible comes across as being a fiction and a fraud.
As far as Islam and Buddhism are concerned, they are not concerned with god, but with how to live in society and spirituality. Anyone using the bible to make a case for christianity is both a sheep and mindless!
As far as evil atrocities are concerned the US, a country run by white christian male capitalists, is responsible for over 40 million murders since WW2!
2.7 million murders were committed in Iraq alone over a lie about weapons of mass destruction. “We know you have them, we gave them to you!” Christianity and Judaism are EVIL, and so are you as a SHEEP!

At first I was angry and wanted to rebuke him angrily. That feeling was then replaced by an overwhelming sense of sadness, not because my beliefs had been shaken, but because he could not feel the joy I have felt, nor the happiness He has brought me. I told him that I would pray for him and that I hoped Gods light would shine on him, which was met with this response:

Apparently you speak for me and for God! This implies you are some kind of authority! It’s a shame your lips keep flapping garbage while your brain is in rewind!

I have never claimed to speak for God or for anyone. I tried to empathise him because I saw my old self in those comments, and if I came across as condescending or arrogant, that certainly was not my intention. I simply want to spread the happiness that He brings me. I also did not seek this person out to argue with, as I would have done a few years back. He found me and I felt moved to say something.

I hope that one day I have the eloquence and the grace to answer people like this. For now I will pray for them and hope that they let Gods presence into both their hearts and their lives and I will forgive them as God forgave me for my transgressions.

Matthew 6: 14-15

 For if you forgive men their trespasses, your heavenly Father will also forgive you.
But if you do not forgive men their trespasses, neither will your Father forgive your trespasses.



If I am an “evil sheep”, because I choose God, then I am an “evil sheep” and will be one to the end of my days.